It’s the second of December and tonight A Charlie Brown Christmas will be playing. I’ve yet to watch It’s The Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown! I feel like I am horribly behind with these Charlie Brown’s. I think he’d be proud.
I seem to be quite behind with certain things. I haven’t watched the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade….. Yes, I dvr’d it. This seems to be my MO for a lot of holiday things. I record them then get back to them when I can.
Sometimes I wish life was like this. I wish I could record something or put something on hold till I had time to get to it. Pause a part of my life so I could skip forward to what I want to do or need to do. Rewind if I make a mistake. Fast forward when I really want to get out of the icky parts. Not that I’ve had a ton of ick, but you know, sometimes it happens.
Life hurries by to quickly, but then not fast enough sometimes. I’d like to be able to stop and savor or fast forward at will. For instance. I’m a 32 year old woman who lives at home and is waiting on Mr. Right. (I am not willing to settle for Mr. Right Now) Years ago, this would be okay, but by societies standards, it’s not. Yes, I run the family business with Mrs. B, since Mr. B can’t, but still, I am a 32 year old woman living at home. My parents would like me gone, but at the same time they tell everyone they couldn’t do it without me. They tell me I can go at any time, but they also are getting up there with health issues that I am not ready to help manage. I feel like I can’t even manage myself. Heck, I can’t even find a guy who will take me. (that sounds really weird when I write that out….)
I’d like to fast forward this part of my life. I want to speed by and get to the point of where I meet Mr. Right (if that ever happens)
But then if I were to do that, I’d miss all the other things in life. It’s the unknown that get’s to you.
And if I could I wish I could rewind to moments in my life when it was really good. So that I could go back and savor.
But then, you are living in the past, before you knew what you know now. Was it really better? Probably not. We think life would be easier if we were kids again, but that only works if you don’t know anything that you know now. If I were a kid knowing what I know now, I’d go insane. Ignorance is bliss, and that is so true. Yet, saying that, I don’t want to be ignorant. I want to know as much as I can and keep learning….
And all of this because of Charlie Brown. (This was not where this post was going at all. I was going to talk about Christmas music. Another time, I guess) But a rather morose post. Sorry, dearies. But on a brighter note, this is my 400th post. Whoo Hoo!